Meeting Mother Ayahuasca
Having agreed to travel to Peru for a 10-day Ayahuasca Retreat, I pushed any preconceived notions about the experience out of my mind. I felt there was no sense in preparing for something that I could never truly prepare for. So I didn’t!
Days before I travelled, I had a channeling and inquired about Ayahuasca and myself. The Magdala explained that if I were in fear, it would be reflected back to me. She must have been sensing that there was some fear, fear of the unknown. It was suggested that I go from a place of fullness (I had been feeling depleted energetically), a place of discernment, and I would have the option to experience physically from this choice. Making the experience less about polarity and more about spirit.
Ayahuasca will take you to a part of the Ba (physical) through the mind to your spirit. Ayahuasca is a physical exercise to find your light. It is beneficial for those who are unsure of their light and wish to have enhancement. It is herbal and it is chemical.
Mary went on to say that Music goes up and down by octaves, and to note that the end of the Ayahuasca experience, my energy will have increased by 1 octave.
Taking this information in, practicing coming from a place of fullness and a place of love, I travelled with confidence to Peru.
Arriving in Iquitos and travelling by a motorized bike on a sand road for over an hour, we arrived at which is the place of Ayahuasca Ceremony………
After settling in, we were instructed to wait in a circle on benches near “the herbalist,” who would administer cleansing. The routine was straight to business, no sense having us walk around all heavy with energy; cleansing us would prove how much we needed to lighten our load. Both physically and energetically.
We waited with some apprehension. Knowing that the purging was the biggest part of the preparation. We were handed buckets and a roll of toilet paper. (lol) When Wilder, the herbalist, appeared, he had a bottle of tincture that was poured into tiny shot glasses. We swigged it back and waited… up to 15 minutes to start working its magic. I mean, that is what we came here for. A long plane ride to Peru, then a shorter flight to Iquitos, then a 1-hour scooter ride into the jungle, I was prepared to carry it out. Eventually, I was prompted to empty my stomach (although not violently); it was urgent, and those who didn’t sufficiently empty their stomach were given another dose for good measure.
Then Wilder came around again with a bottle and poured a tiny amount into a plastic spoon. We were instructed to block a nostril and snort the liquid into the open nostril. Pulling hard and fast. It was a burning effect that elicited wide reactions; no one expected it to travel so fast into the head. Burning eyes and a very awake sensation were felt. After doing both nostrils. We were ready to retreat.
But, not so fast, we had to do an eye wash next, which was easy compared to the nostril snort. Our eyes were cleansed in preparation for improving our etheric vision.
After taking the Ayahuasca, there was a 20-minute wait in silence. During this silence, I began to experience the clatter of the insect world, along with the birds and frogs joining in the band with no leader. Each contributing their own unique version of music just for the joy of it.
The Ayahuasca warmth quickly moved down and seemed to settle in before increasing in intensity while it spread like an internal vapor throughout my body to my head. I began to focus less on the external (things around me) and more on the internal. Noticing how the noises of the jungle (exterior) were a synchronistic contribution to the internal experience within.
The outside cacophony began to grow louder and closer. I felt surrounded by music, and the songs of the jungle became specific to me.
After (what felt like) a great length of time, the Maestros began to stir and sigh, taking deep breaths while walking and preparing mentally for the Ceremony to begin. It was obvious they were not in a rush and were not ready until they were ready.
When the otherworldly nasal sounds called Icaros began to emanate from the Maestros, this profound and unique music was accompanied by the percussion of the jungle kingdom. Could it be they were all in collusion?
And the symphony begins with Mother Ayahuasca as Conductor, coordinator, and choreographer! A symphony of Nature, conducted by nature……
Symphony extraordinaire; ……
What a unique yet wonderful symphony she facilitates.
The music, acting as a vine spirals, and when the Maestros begin to sing, it becomes entangled with the instruments of the Amazon.
If one takes the time to allow this music to wash over and infiltrate their being, they are then able to follow each of the sounds to its origins and feel into the rise and fall of each crescendo. Creating a unique up and down spiral that is felt within and heard without.
Each person was experiencing the unique and profound singing of the Amazon, specific to them – when each person's “music” happened, it became intertwined and multilayered sound.
If one were to follow their “music,” you could hear your music rising in crescendo and falling – all in rhythm to your heart, to the Ayahuasca, to the group. At times, it felt that the sound was inside my ears; when the volume went up, it would rush and roar in my head. After a time, it returned to background noise, and the internal senses that the Ayahuasca was waking began to rise. My body began to take deep, inward breaths and sigh long and slow bellows - Mother Ayahuasca was working her Magick, and waking all dormant areas of the body and brain. You could feel her snake-like energy swaying back and forth, warming the body, waking and enlivening the areas that were asleep.
30 minutes in – I saw a vivid green snake-like vine move up and sidle in front of me, slowly winding her way to the left side of my head. My first thought was, “Don’t be alarmed,” this is Mother Ayahuasca! Her vine body appears like a snake to the uninitiated. Each ceremony is an initiation. This is an ancient, star-seeded initiation of the Maya who, it is said, came from the Pleiades to share their knowledge.
We sat for a short moment with her, staring at the left side of my face; I was controlling myself not to overreact and to slowly look to the left, keeping my composure. I decided to speak, “What do you have to tell me?” Her answer was direct and short, the voice low, subtle with no emotion. “You write…” This was a statement rather than a question.
Me, matching the energy…“yes”, with a touch of apprehension, trying to feel confident.
Mother Ayahuasca “I would ask that you write about your experience…. here.”
Me, leaving a short hesitation, wondered if I would be able to capture this bizarre experience. “Yes, I can do that”.
I turned away, and she disappeared that fast. That was the first and last meeting with Mother Ayahuasca.
If “fear” is an emotion you are holding onto, Mother Ayahuasca will trigger it, helping you release that which no longer serves you. Many hold fear deep within, and it must be released. It is her honor and mission to serve those who come for healing. Be advised that asking Mother A. for healing and then being specific about what that entails can often be an effort in futility.
Why? Because she has a larger perspective of what healing needs to take place to get to the place where you can heal that which you are seeking. Often, there are layers of “stuff” that need to be peeled away and dealt with before you can get to the crux of the issue. Mother A. has no problem going directly to the cause and creating discomfort. And, if fear is an issue that will likely be triggered to be dealt with forthwith. There is no room for fear if we are working on love. I will say that again…..
Fear will prevent you from healing
Fear is the opposite of love
To administer love is to administer healing
Fear must be removed before any healing can take place
Fear is a condition that must be released in order to begin peeling the layers of dis-ease. Fear lies dormant, coiled at the base of our spine, waiting for triggers. In order to heal, we must start at the root of the cause….fear is the root of all dis-ease, it patiently waits ready to spring into action, expressing the primal action of fight or flight. It is the intention of Mother Ayahuasca to start at the base of our dis-ease, after all, we have come to her for healing. We must release all that no longer serves us! It is her honor to assist those who ask.